Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Wonderful Nightmare


















I dosed off pretty early yesterday considering having few hours of nap during the daylight. Woke up at occasional hours searching for a clock ticking: still too early. I had a dream last night, and in that fantasy world of mine, for the first time in a long long time, it made my heart felt so light as feather.

Light because I was starting to be happy again. Ever thought of looking at a person, and that person makes you feel like seeing fireworks and feeling butterflies all over? Well this is that person for me, you were right, an few hours of dreaming makes it feel like spending an entire day. I am glad for this.

Few hours before I slept, I was looking at his picture, not thinking much, just minutes worth of glance. There was something there, but I rather not go into it. So I smiled like a little child as if she was able to ride the carousal multiple times when she was 3? The seed was then planted in that seconds of smile.

I wish I could have this every night and every morning with you darling.

I may not love him, but I know if it were you, I'd be a zillion times happy.

Mel
x

Monday, December 06, 2010

Mission possible in a week (7/12-14/12)

I'll be creating 5 types of nail art boards, with different themes.
For now I'm thinking, we should have a:-

1. Holidays and Christmas design
2. CNY 2011 (colour> red, yellow and purple)
3. Folk art (half glitter, half matte)
4. Toning (half board) + Crystal designs
5. 3d designs

Will start work brainstorming tomorrow. Work for board 1 begins.

OMG help

m


Doing my nails?

I do not know exactly what to write. So let me start of with few of my thoughts for now. My fingernails are ugly, which probably means I need to do something about it soon. I was thinking of either getting colored nails or gel extension, about half a centimeter long perhaps? I don't know, I haven't actually made up my mind just yet. But its been some time since I last did my fingernails. So to help me decide, I'm going to evaluate the pro and cons of the extension.

Let's start with positives:-
1. Beautiful glossy nails forever, well two weeks before refilling.
2. I get to try out the new white glittery gel I bought last summer.
3. Getting people's attention and compliment
4. I suppose my colleagues would benefit from the training? Yeah, it'd be nice.
5. Perfection, self grooming is absolutely essential to anyone. People judge you by your looks first, thus the outlook determines the impression given. Of course, the simple act of beautifying your nails would help portray a certain look. Which reminds me, I've always fancied ladies who takes good care of their nails, up to date, the only person I have seen with GORGEOUS nails 24/7 is my VP. Clean and simple, portrays the elegant side of her, pinkish nude and the best part is its neat ALL the time. Never a slight chip of the color.

Alright, the decision has been made, I'm not doing gel nails, simply because the color gel I have isn't the right match for my toenails.

Now off to apply my daily dose of Avojuice onto my yet to become dry wrinkled leg.

Signing out
Mel


AND.COMPLETED!
Ok here's the finish product.. not what i wanted initially but, hell its christmas..
















Happy holidays and merry christmas!!!

m
x



Monday, April 05, 2010

A man's blink


He definitely winked, at who?
I decided to un-shy myself and face him..
Then a smile.

I wish somehow, life was simple.
Like the time I winked at the guards at the security checks.

Hi stranger,
He knew what I liked, then when I accidently left the webcam switched on,
I was lying down my bed.
Curling my legs into a curvaceous position..

Take control of me






Friday, March 19, 2010

My blaaaas


Sometimes it just isn't worth it to even try asking,
Gossip town isn't big enough to single you out,
You mention him,
Is it prove that first love isn't as strong?
Or was it lust town...

Come here rude boy,
Are you big enough?
Take it, as she fakes it,
Cause you know you'll never be able to love her like you did anymore.

Murphy's Law
-Anything that may go wrong, will always go wrong-

Blah blah blah
Mel






Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Outta Control


His Benjamin Frank-a-lin's mean nothing to me,
Just please don't scar me,

Louder baby louder..
Going to a private bar,
And suddenly everything feels like mars,
Girls dancing on laps,
And everyone claps.

Music's louder than bang,
Dry humping people dang!

-MeL-icious-
''pop champagne.. say ahh"


Monday, March 15, 2010

One more all nighter?


He will be fine...

Do you think he wants to see me?

''When you feel like you love someone more than he loves you, it can make you a lil crazy, it can make you alot crazy" Teddy, Grey's Anatomy.

I trust you Chiew Yi.. promise is a promise girl!
Fine, I will let you "...wack me until I cum" lol if I ever turn into someone like her.
OMG I still can't believe you said that to me!

~Mel's LAW~
Anything that sounds wrong, may not sound as it seems

In another story,
Needs the GUAVA energy can.. and needs it real badly.. 1 down 2 more to go.. COME ON!!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Lost In A Dream

Takes to the sky like a bird in flight
And who will be her lover?

All my life I've never seen a man
Taken by the wind

Swayed obliviously through the rocky pathways
Through the sunny blue-day reminds me the milky ways

I've been a fool before
An hour ago he wrote

Now I'm going down down down
Lying on a bed, sleeping for the wrong team

A load of God complex
Cock it and pull it

Wall Street


Peachy dimmed lights accompanied with sticky notes plastered all over signed in his name.

Two chairs
One soft gentle stare
Movie tonight dear?
I have always loved how ''Gordon Gekko'' ripped her clothes off, he took her by surprise.
She loved it, I bet.

Items were snatched off her
A folded note concealed
The road not taken was teased
Guessed he knew how she should be pleased

The call was unpicked
O'clock had tick-ed





Saturday, March 06, 2010

Wrestling on Bed

A playful naughty little girl who likes some attention
It was an early evening, I think it was counter strike he was playing
I was sleeping beside, not knowing the Ninja's presence

An hour later, it was time to walk
Saw a lil green creature and caught it with my bare hand
Brought it into the room and attempted to scare him
Worked!

Soon after lil green friend was freed
Ninja pulled me into bed
Then the wrestling begins

Wth I lost, but won in a way. :) yes baby..
You can't make me, even if you're on top while
grabbing both my hands


Me la nie
An inspiration from Gavin and Stacey S2 E3

Wonders if chubbycheeks is coming over tomorrow...?



Thursday, March 04, 2010

Do I love myself?


I know I love him,

I know I love my chubby lil sis, Happy Birthday babylicious! weeps.. gonna post you something in a minute...

I know I love my parents, mummy daddy I owe everything to you...

I know I love my gong gong and ma ma,

I know I love my kakak very much, I cannot imagine a life without her.


BUT, do I love myself?

“Love yourself first and everything falls into line.”
Lucille Ball quotes (American radio and motion-picture actress and comedy star, 1911-1989)

Sounds silly, but I actually don't know if I love myself.
I know I used to love taking portrait shots of myself.
I know I love being scantily clad
I know I love wasting time putting on make up and doing up my hair


Ways to fall in love with Melanie See? (think I should ask ZJ about this) lol
~but here's my way...

A list of ways to love Myself
1. Getting enough sleep> by sleeping at 11pm and waking up at 6am

2. A Morning list
-Looking in the mirror and fall in love with the reflection
-Eliminate self criticism because I believe I CAN
-Making positive affirmations everyday
"I love and accept myself completely and unconditionally''

3. Be kind and positive

4. Acknowledge My Effort

5. Learning to let go of worry

“There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.”
— Epictetus quotes (Greek philosopher associated with the Stoics, AD 55-c.135)

6. Be truthful to myself
-Stop burying my negative emotions
-Thoughts can be changed, so that healing and self growth can take place

7. Learn to see beauty all around me (an inspiration from "Amelie" a movie recommended by Nab)

Lovingly,
Mel

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Procrastination


What are my plans today?
1. Procrastinate
2. Finish Lesson 18's characters
3. Create dummies!!!!
4. Send in my essay to be marked

lets see if I manage this few simple task today. :) woooops gonna be a loooong day!!

but for now > breakfast!

Sickness or my weak state is not gonna prevent me from doing anything, like my mum said:
Your body can take it!!

Love
Mel

and another picture :)

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Jealousy


oh my lord, ok the juicier side of me..

I remember this one time I was a shy 7 year old girl who knew nothing about how serious life can get. I was a carefree girl who hops around town alone, buying leong cha and just hanging at arcades, my special place was the island of balls.

Life was AWESOME at 7.

I had my first kiss,

my first near to death accident,

my unwishful encounter with the golf clubber,

understanding what sex actually is,

nearly drowned...




Ok so fast forward 14years and > I'm 21 now,
So here's the tantalizing part...

1. A told B that M used to chase after J? what the chocolate fudge> so not true!

2. C is willing to have sexual intercourse with her bf but ONSs are no nos.

3. J asked me to stop being honest for once, and just sit back and listen. Not to share but to listen. Life gets easier when you just listen. No point sharing your doubts with people whom are just gonna make it worse for you.

4. For M, being in a relationship is about honesty trustworthiness and loyalty. Whether its about our future past or present. As long as we share everything, the bond between us is impossible to break. I believe so too, I guess you'll tell me when the time is right.

5. Q.Tet- She's back to square one now. Square one was the day she was down on her knees begging for help. Seriously. And she very much needs Q.Tarts and Q.Tuts advise. When the time is right.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

Jealousy> I don't get this feeling often, especially when its aimed solely towards a person. This huge monster rips my heart apart. Sometimes it becomes unbearable. But it'll heal alright, with time, the only difference now is, it'll heal with a scar to carry along.

The walls are building, and so there's no time to waste.

My last words? 2 options left
a. Well I want to know everything before anything starts.
b. Continue filling me with doubts and I'd fill cloud 9's in your head too.

Stamped Cindy Tan.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

12 hours with NO procrastination.

Twelve hours straight!

When you think about it, its only 3 hours per module,
then breaking down into minutes of:-
a. Minutes to the kitchen
b. Excuses to the loo
c. Minutes for mental preparation before u start
d. The Bed temptation
e. Minutes re-reading your journal, or redoing stata
f. Seconds sipping freshly brewed coffee
g. Figuring out which colour pen and highlighter to use
h. The minutes figuring out where you old notes are

I guess, this just sums down to an hours worth of proper concentration?
Well Val,
Keep yourself motivated, the fire is there. I've always thought of you as my role model.
Yea, I'm thinking wth, but truth of the matter is.
You're stronger than you think you are.
Sure you made a few mistakes, but I guess mistakes are what's guiding us to betterment.

I'm gonna attempt a 12 hour study marathon on Sunday. (tmr)

Hope it'd be a boring one.
And wake up on Monday as Miss Panda.

Fingers crossed
Good Luck

p.s. STATA! jia you :) muaks xxx


Friday, February 26, 2010

A dedication.


Take me, this is all that I've got,
This is all I can be.

I'm not sure if thats what I wanna be.

Did I say something stupid,
there goes one more mistake.

I love you.


(I still prefer Didi Benami's version live)
Song's called The way I am.


The taste of my tears

You know one thing about me? I cry in silence.
If you ever see my cry in your face, its cause I let you.
Somehow the weakest moment felt as if my strongest moment.

When I cry,
I take a few steps back and then curl up in a little ball.
Or I would hid my ugly red nosed expression from the people near me.
I would run far far away, and perhaps go to a coffee shop.

I'd order warm honey sea coconut from the aunty.
Then tell her my parents are nearby, when they weren't.
So she won't worry.
I would find a place to sit and wonder.

Whether on the rooftop overlooking the wonderful city (or carpark in my case).
Or on top of a very high shelf, about two stories high.
Then I'd sit and wonder, wondering about how special I am.
How incredibly blessed I am. How grateful I should be instead of sulking.

Sometimes its like a little wake up call. A wake up call I wouldn't even have gotten, if I have thought of strategizing my plans with precision.

Nevertheless, thank you.

M
(I will stop wondering for now)

Thursday, February 18, 2010

A sudden move nearby, why?

I received a phonecall at 5.15am from my supervisor, and we talked for about over an hour.

Was tired, now stressed and fully energized. Just got the news, that you're going to be my main competitor. I am going to compete with you till the end. Thanks alot for calling in my clients, I didn't know you copied the contacts.

I hope you have made a wise decision in your career movement. Don't make the choices just because you're afraid to accept people's opinion. You obviously had your chance. I really hope your AWAKE, your eyes wide open!! She is not sponsoring you, yes she invested a huge amount of greens on you and provided you with a apartment and a shop. But realise this, there are strings attached to everything you get for free.

You should understand the consequences of being an employee especially to someone like her. You should have known of the fact on how her domestic servant is treated. You obviously know, how loud and frustrated she gets when she starts complaining.

Come on, seriously?

I'll tell you of my experience during my last summer. I had a appointment, a very important function to attend to on one particular day. She knew I was done with work and was halfway washing my hair in the bathroom.

Yet, she demanded me to attend to her urgent needs? I mean come on!

I was literally drenched with shampoo when I heard a loud bang on the door!!! WTH, I was call to come in straight away. My hair all wet, I hurriedly changed into my work clothes and rushed to the site. When then I found out, that she delibrately wanted to portray her 'Diva' act. As result, I spend 2hours (a quicky) trying to please her every needs. And was unable to attend a very important musical.

I hope you realise soon enough, what is expected from you. For that I wish you all the best in everything you do. Try not to be over-ambitious, stay within reason and limits. Get a guy like him, someone who treats you like a proper human-being, rather than f*ing any stranger who finds you on cyberspace.

Your a nice girl, just needed the right directions.

Take care.
Let the game begin.

Mel

Monday, February 15, 2010

Going for maximum impact


Over my past summer, my main mission the for entire summer vacay was to ''frame'' an issue. A preety big issue, as it seems to be. Although conceptually, solving an issue seems preety straight forward, the reality is that most people don't do it well. Well lets just say I was quite naive and thought I ruled the world at 21.


Yet it was a challenge I am prepared to go into battle with. Being the so-called young new manager leading a diversely talented team of 8 can be a problem when one minor issue errupts like a profligate volcano. How it all started?


Let's just say in general, individuals tend to focus on their own particular needs and on matter relating to their specific areas of expertise. In doing so, they may be blinded of the details that actually matter for the responsibilities they were assigned to.

The only way out was by reframing the issue, in hope to instil clarity into complexity.

First, to circumvent the obstacles at hand.

Second, correct the disconnects (in my case the bad apple).

And most importantly, changing the style, change the frame. (everyone has got a style they feel suited to, so order to successfully frame the situation, I've got to learn to adapt to diverse styles of commucation)

I dare not call myself an effective ''framer'' but I guess this special skill can be learned and strengthen with dicipline and effort. However, I dare say the real challenge in this is when your faced with the unexpected. New information and unforeseen circumstances can be quite a sheepsload to deal with.

The greatest lesson I have experienced, is no matter what happens, happens. Embrace and persevere. Keep the purpose and your audience foremost in mind so you can thoughtfully frame a response that furthers your goals — thus strengthens your leadership.

And for that I thank you, to the people who push and guided me through. I am stronger today.



Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Extreme display of emotion

aahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my mind screams..

Love is in the air, its wonderful to have someone you can rely upon.

I do, I really do.

Its the special tingling sensation that I miss everyday before I dream off into my wonderland.

In another story
-Teamwork what it really means, & being a LEADER, no, not just any leader.

1. ''the feeling of being dependable and having absolute commitment then crying together with joyful tears, tasting the accomplishment for the day''

2. an Effective Leader who places her team's goals first in mind, being able to command the respect from your supposed seniors

Mel (I'm too complicated)

p.s.Mel - I was attracted to u the moment we stepped into the lift, its the countless seconds i miss most






Tuesday, February 02, 2010

2/2 W4



woke up real early.. then, as expected, dosed for 45minutes before I got a call from my prince.

TIME TO WAKE UP BABE!

hmmm

Points to note of the day

1. Bedazzeled by his 'trading' eyes, omg he talked to me!! OMG

2. OMlusciousG hazelnut chocolixir is awesome, I'm craving for more

3. Valerie looks preety tired, considering she skipped chinese?? I'm guessing she cried last night

4. I cant believe I was at the same lecture as eevonne but failed to even exchange hello's

5. Caught red-handed by Officer Calvin at cafe lib, for buying those fat french fries


Somehow, the more sleep you get the lazier you become..

I'm gonna set a new routine... omg can't wait


He will be my motivation to get my sorry ass up every morning...


p.s. oh my freaking hell, chinese is gonna get tough... WISH I had a thicker skin to start shamelessly asking for favours...
Desperate Mel x

Saturday, January 09, 2010

RE: Leakage of Exam tips


Dear fellow examiners,

A short message to my trustworthy fellow scholars.
I am delightful to say that, exam tips are strictly CONFIDENTIAL. 
Anyone found guilty of spreading inappropriate gossips regarding the rules of the examination may face severe consequences, such as being FIRED!

As for now, the status of the rules are subject to change. 

Dateline remains 15/1/2010.

Prof. Melanie See 
University of Love
Head of Department of Flirtatious Theory

Sunday, January 03, 2010

2010 Your unbelievable!

New Years Resolution> Change! 

''Let's give it a try'' 
''In 10 years time 1/1/2020, let's all book a room at the Marriott overlooking London Eye'' 

''2 weeks probation period''
-10 simple rules
-D day 15th Jan 2010
-Examiners: Ee Vonne Ong, Jeong Da Woon and Chooi Valerie.
-Module Leader: Mel