My blaaaas

Sometimes it just isn't worth it to even try asking,

Gossip town isn't big enough to single you out,

You mention him,

Is it prove that first love isn't as strong?

Or was it lust town...

Come here rude boy,

Are you big enough?

Take it, as she fakes it,

Cause you know you'll never be able to love her like you did anymore.

Murphy's Law

-Anything that may go wrong, will always go wrong-

Blah blah blah

Mel

Outta Control

His Benjamin Frank-a-lin's mean nothing to me,

Just please don't scar me,

Louder baby louder..

Going to a private bar,

And suddenly everything feels like mars,

Girls dancing on laps,

And everyone claps.

Music's louder than bang,

Dry humping people dang!

-MeL-icious-

''pop champagne.. say ahh"

One more all nighter?

He will be fine...

Do you think he wants to see me?

''When you feel like you love someone more than he loves you, it can make you a lil crazy, it can make you alot crazy" Teddy, Grey's Anatomy.

I trust you Chiew Yi.. promise is a promise girl!

Fine, I will let you "...wack me until I cum" lol if I ever turn into someone like her.

OMG I still can't believe you said that to me!

~Mel's LAW~

Anything that sounds wrong, may not sound as it seems

In another story,

Needs the GUAVA energy can.. and needs it real badly.. 1 down 2 more to go.. COME ON!!

Lost In A Dream

Takes to the sky like a bird in flight

And who will be her lover?

All my life I've never seen a man

Taken by the wind

Swayed obliviously through the rocky pathways

Through the sunny blue-day reminds me the milky ways

I've been a fool before

An hour ago he wrote

Now I'm going down down down

Lying on a bed, sleeping for the wrong team

A load of God complex

Cock it and pull it

Wall Street

Peachy dimmed lights accompanied with sticky notes plastered all over signed in his name.

Two chairs

One soft gentle stare

Movie tonight dear?

I have always loved how ''Gordon Gekko'' ripped her clothes off, he took her by surprise.

She loved it, I bet.

Items were snatched off her

A folded note concealed

The road not taken was teased

Guessed he knew how she should be pleased

The call was unpicked

O'clock had tick-ed

Wrestling on Bed

A playful naughty little girl who likes some attention

It was an early evening, I think it was counter strike he was playing

I was sleeping beside, not knowing the Ninja's presence

An hour later, it was time to walk

Saw a lil green creature and caught it with my bare hand

Brought it into the room and attempted to scare him

Worked!

Soon after lil green friend was freed

Ninja pulled me into bed

Then the wrestling begins

Wth I lost, but won in a way. :) yes baby..

You can't make me, even if you're on top while

grabbing both my hands

Me la nie

An inspiration from Gavin and Stacey S2 E3

Wonders if chubbycheeks is coming over tomorrow...?

Do I love myself?

I know I love him,

I know I love my chubby lil sis, Happy Birthday babylicious! weeps.. gonna post you something in a minute...

I know I love my parents, mummy daddy I owe everything to you...

I know I love my gong gong and ma ma,

I know I love my kakak very much, I cannot imagine a life without her.

BUT, do I love myself?

“Love yourself first and everything falls into line.”

Lucille Ball quotes (American radio and motion-picture actress and comedy star, 1911-1989)

Sounds silly, but I actually don't know if I love myself.

I know I used to love taking portrait shots of myself.

I know I love being scantily clad

I know I love wasting time putting on make up and doing up my hair

Ways to fall in love with Melanie See? (think I should ask ZJ about this) lol

~but here's my way...

A list of ways to love Myself

1. Getting enough sleep> by sleeping at 11pm and waking up at 6am

2. A Morning list

-Looking in the mirror and fall in love with the reflection

-Eliminate self criticism because I believe I CAN

-Making positive affirmations everyday

"I love and accept myself completely and unconditionally''

3. Be kind and positive

4. Acknowledge My Effort

5. Learning to let go of worry

“There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.”

— Epictetus quotes (Greek philosopher associated with the Stoics, AD 55-c.135)

6. Be truthful to myself

-Stop burying my negative emotions

-Thoughts can be changed, so that healing and self growth can take place

7. Learn to see beauty all around me (an inspiration from "Amelie" a movie recommended by Nab)

Lovingly,

Mel

Procrastination

What are my plans today?

1. Procrastinate

2. Finish Lesson 18's characters

3. Create dummies!!!!

4. Send in my essay to be marked

lets see if I manage this few simple task today. :) woooops gonna be a loooong day!!

but for now > breakfast!

Sickness or my weak state is not gonna prevent me from doing anything, like my mum said:

Your body can take it!!

Love

Mel

and another picture :)

Jealousy

oh my lord, ok the juicier side of me..

I remember this one time I was a shy 7 year old girl who knew nothing about how serious life can get. I was a carefree girl who hops around town alone, buying leong cha and just hanging at arcades, my special place was the island of balls.

Life was AWESOME at 7.

I had my first kiss,

my first near to death accident,

my unwishful encounter with the golf clubber,

understanding what sex actually is,

nearly drowned...

Ok so fast forward 14years and > I'm 21 now,

So here's the tantalizing part...

1. A told B that M used to chase after J? what the chocolate fudge> so not true!

2. C is willing to have sexual intercourse with her bf but ONSs are no nos.

3. J asked me to stop being honest for once, and just sit back and listen. Not to share but to listen. Life gets easier when you just listen. No point sharing your doubts with people whom are just gonna make it worse for you.

4. For M, being in a relationship is about honesty trustworthiness and loyalty. Whether its about our future past or present. As long as we share everything, the bond between us is impossible to break. I believe so too, I guess you'll tell me when the time is right.

5. Q.Tet- She's back to square one now. Square one was the day she was down on her knees begging for help. Seriously. And she very much needs Q.Tarts and Q.Tuts advise. When the time is right.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

Jealousy> I don't get this feeling often, especially when its aimed solely towards a person. This huge monster rips my heart apart. Sometimes it becomes unbearable. But it'll heal alright, with time, the only difference now is, it'll heal with a scar to carry along.

The walls are building, and so there's no time to waste.

My last words? 2 options left

a. Well I want to know everything before anything starts.

b. Continue filling me with doubts and I'd fill cloud 9's in your head too.

Stamped Cindy Tan.