r!sk management

i remember my first high note..
seeing him alone
in a locked chamber..
me kneeling down shiver like thunders' droplet
my favoarite hazelnut was the keyholder

i remember being touched
produce feelings of
affection, gratitude or sympathy
a feeling from the guy i thought
a friend was

i remember the night
on the bed
that bubbly red sore

i remember the man
who first confronted me
being guilty
of the things i
never should have done

the risk i took
still spooks me late at night
the pearls i pay for
is the light to
my life candle

[peace]

Why me, Lord?
What have I ever done to deserve even one
Of the blessings I've known
Why me Lord, what did I ever do to worth love from You
And the kindness You've shown
Lord help me Jesus I've wasted it...
So help me Jesus, You know what I am
Now that I know that I've needed you...
So help me Jesus my soul's in Your hands

Try me Lord, if You think there's a way
I can repay, all I've taken from You
Maybe Lord, I can show someone else
What I've been through myself
On my way back to You

Lord help me Jesus I've wasted it...
So help me Jesus, You know what I am
Now that I know that I've needed you...
So help me Jesus my soul's in Your hands

Jesus, My soul's in your hands

...she looked from the girl to Max and back again and was horrified to hear herself emit a sort of howl, like a dying animal. She had to get out of there. But there was nowhere else to go. A solid wall of photographers hemmed her in on all the sides....

..."No, leave it," Max said, pushing past Hunter and barring his way. "this is between me and Sienna. I'll go." He stepped inside. At first he couldn't see her. It was gloomy with the doors shut and all the lights out, and his eyes took a moment to adjust form the glaring sunshine outside. But then he heard a stifled sob and saw a tiny figure curled up in a ball at the foot of the pulpit, half hidden by a vast spray of white bridal lilies....

..."Go away!" she wailed as she heard footsteps approaching. "Please. I just want to be alone." The footsteps kept coming, louder and louder, with a firm male tread. When she looked up it was Max, she put her head in her hand and moaned even louder. He squatted down on his haunches beside her and waited for her to look up at him. When she did, her beautiful dark blue eyes were still wet and glistening with tears, and she was bitting down her lower lip to prevent it from trembling. She looked ten years old again....


..."Please dont say it any more," she implored him. "I don't want your pity! I know what I look like now, and I know who I am, all right? And, and..." she stammered. "Sienna," he tried to interrupt her, but she knew if she didn't say this now, she would never find the strength again.....

..."I brought her because ..." he hesitated. "Well, because I thought I might need a shoulder to cry on. Moral support. Or something."Because I knew I'd be seeing you again. And i didn't know if i could handle it." There is no one else, Sienna"...

my receipe of love

is there such a thing??
well let's create it shall we...
this is what i think

a spoon full of sugar
5'50g of sexiness
2 cups of sweet passion
1 glass of liquor
1 cinnamon stick
1.5 kg of laughter
18 teaspoon of experience
1 word of satisfaction
5 bowls of energy

the meat can be baked in a moderate 36*c oven for 30minutes
turn halfway through cooking..

is there anything else?
hmm...

riding high

silvercooper

Sienna McMahon

minnie mouse

guilty

greatwall (haha)

rose and lilacs

scented candles with coco chanel's foam bath

lingerie..my bare skin

dreams...

M.

wish to be called melanie...or
mel for good frens

like being in a ...............................the body = art
(only me...in my own naked world)shhhh..

like making silly jokes....
more you chase after him...he'll just run further... but that was a million years back...its a phobia now..

people tend to mark u for life if they know what's wrong with u..so dont ever let your dark secrets leak out...until u meet the RIGHT companion...which takes a million years..lol

pure statement..

how do i feel?

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.She puts on her make-up and brushes her long dark hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."


I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you


It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me in to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."

leejamesbenryandearand to everyone i dear care for my frens

the second key

gimme my shimmy

all my life i've waited...for a fairytale story...not realising that i'm unconsciously creating the bits of it.. having told not to lose...having the heart where red rose buds the evening mellows of charlie chaplin..

seeing things from the eyes of a hurricane..confusing myself with simplistic markings...

crimson rose like an everlasting poetry where great minds ponder its hypothetical state of tragedy

the "first time i meet you, i know'' the holes and hills i must endure...what better way than to live in a shack full of mysteries and fantasies where all it comes to is just misery...

ur right..the sought after live is like ecstacy...binding the mind with full sovereignty


have fun analysing the first maze...

mel